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cold jam
03:22
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When the curtains freeze and I’m blowing off
Would summer give me what I’m after?
When you call my bluff and you know I’m wrong
Still would be nice to know why but I don’t wanna
I’m no stranger to winters or seasonal living
Just this lack of company
And I know that it’s hard to lose face
But in spite of the urge to blame you
We’re screaming I don’t care at all
I know I fell short and I know you need better
So tell me who you are, take it back to where we started
I know you want more and I know that it’s harder
As long as this is not about who you think I want you to be..
Can’t help but wonder if,
If we’ll only know happiness when, when we’ve lost it
So what is there to talk about
Is it worrying to glimpse upon a memory of shame
What if they don’t care at all
They are right but they’re not wise
And nor am I
So leave some room in here for introspection, to feed the lie
How it can soothe and can change the meaning of what it’s like
And what it takes to get there, setting aside the old fears
And waiting, but I still feel the same
I’ve been let down for days
Summer, you know you gotta get down on it
Whether you even have a leg to stand on
Pleasure, can never seem to get back to it
Bitter in the fading light
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2. |
Linda Blair
02:24
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Hold out and retract
You wanna put this into my hands I’ll pay it back
Though this confrontation’s shaping up for a nervous wreck
So familiar in new discomfort
You wanna push and then pull away
Scan for pain and offset, as if you didn’t incur it (ooh)
Know I’m the sucker forsure
And where did all of that work get us in the end?
This is too small for your barbed opinions, but
Just set it off and let it all bleed out
Know we’re just kidding ourselves, but…
I can’t let go
We’ll just dance around it
We’ve said it all, so let it all drain…now
I won’t forget it so
Hold out and retract
You wanna put this into my hands I’ll pay it back
Cash out when you’re spent
Just bask in the unimportance
Let you do what you do best
Demotivated as always
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3. |
Old Scratch
02:24
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No matter what I do I can’t get over it
I only think about the things that I was missing
And everything that I wanted
I’m not alone, feeling lonely
And I can’t take the irony
But it’s not for a lack of trying and I admit that
No matter what I do I can’t get over it
If I could speak up for myself then I could fix things
I guess that’s all that I wanted
It’s only impermanence
I wanted it different, what I’ve been missing
What we had lost before you left
All along spirit wants you
To make a way
Her smile can be the consequence (she grants permission)
All along spirit wants you
To pick up and try again
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4. |
Highway Gothic
04:31
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I won’t call to get through to you
Couldn’t wait one moment before we swap time worn
A perfect notion for a headache, I get it
You’re worried that the hope is gone for good
Now I guess it’s hoping that the time’s born pure
Savor the honesty
Even though it probably burned out like the feeling should
Imitate all the features that I started with when I fell over you
We embrace like any other but I won’t get through to you
Pre-arranged like every other self-defeating point of view
Searching for the subtext of a message dictated in undramatic style
Like the highway gothic letters on the sign
But I can see your face, but I can see your face
Blurring at the painted lines
But I can see your face, but I can see your face
Before the hesitation starts
Wait for a moment
Coming to, in control
Breaking out (before the hesitation starts)
Yeah just get out of the car
Please just get out of the car
Savor the honesty
Even though it probably burned out like the feeling should
Recommit to the features that I started with when I fell over you
And now it’s a new celebration of
Everything I always thought I had to filter out
Just don’t conflate with the feelings that I started with
When I fell over you
We embraced like any other but I won’t get through to you
Pre-arranged like every other self-defeating point of view
Pre-arranged like every other
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5. |
half truths
03:53
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Wander out again
Dark and safe and silent in the air for a moment, before
You’ve been a friend to me,
But have I taken more from you than I have given?
Thinking I’ve started up on giving up, now
Giving up on a feeling and it shows
But it’s not a failing to see that it bothers me so I
Grab my keys and go for a ride
Never too far away swear I see my old self in the mirror
It’s a hint and I think I should take it
I think I should take it, I noticed the difference,
I wanted you there
We’ve been here before
As if I had the option
You’ve been too good to me
Though I’ve taken more from you than I have given
Thinking I’ve started up on giving up, now
Giving up on feeling anymore, but…
It isn’t the same, so can I try for once to give you what you wanted?
No more missing out, missing out on, missing out missing out on
No starting over when you’ve forgotten to leave anything behind
No such thing as typical, no one play to drag this out
And we’re getting worn down
Is this validating in the wrong type of way?
Opportunity sure costs a lot these days
It was an accident when you
Gave me your laugh (Not to mention )
I wonder if it stings when you hear it back
Not that I’m counting on it (three wasted summers, but)
Suppose that I’m grateful after all
We’re only here for half truths anyways
Muddled down again
Filling in the silence in the air for a moment
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6. |
settle
04:11
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Step out on the porch every two hours like clockwork
The mild high club is blowing strong
And you can be my welcome guest from time to time
Provide good company while I suppress the appetite
‘Cause staying in is much like going out
At least when we still had the choice
But since we don’t we can just make it easier to… settle the mind
Behind these red laced bedroom eyes
Clearing out the pores every 8 hours like clockwork
Stress advertisement is running long
Scraping off the marked skin but this round’s worse
Sustain futile treatment
But at least when it fails I’ll have you to thank
For some loving words
A smile breaks so beauty can have its… turn
So we’ll take process over outcome
Ibuprofen for the ache
Acute effect doesn’t matter yet, well…
If it ever will anyways
But somehow we settle
When fate decides
Our way is better
But we’re still terrified
‘Cause staying in is much like going out
At least when we still had the choice
But since we don’t we can just make it easier to
Settle the mind
Inside this red draped bedroom
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7. |
one last note
04:30
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So keep those expectations low
Excuses follow familiar patterns with a curveball or two
Is it too much to retain?
Awake through stubborn eyes
It wasn’t about this, it wasn’t about this at all
Defeat my weary smile with bored expression
Too anxious to refrain
We’re only reading lines
It wasn’t about this, it wasn’t about this at all
Too angry to complain
Deplete my troubled mind
It wasn’t about this, was never about this at all
Thought I heard Jake say “I get burned out by the good days”
And I thought yeah I can relate, cause you’re wearing me out this round
But I’m still working, cause we’re
One and the same one and the same and it’s alright
And I’m still working
Given a lot through story changing shape (One and the same)
But we’re caught (haunted the same and it’s alright)
So level me out this round
And I’m stuck staring awake through these (One and the same)
Bedroom eyes (swallowed the page and it’s alright)
At least I’m thankful for you hearing me out this time
I wouldn’t expect this to calm you
But you can expect me to share
I never intended to harm you, still
I never pretended to care
Couldn’t have made it these years
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8. |
The Holdup
02:51
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Coming to meet you, give me the pretense
Don’t have to reach you, don’t need no reasons
Dreaming I’ve found you, waking alone now
Waiting to see you, waiting to hear you… well turn it up now
Gonna catch me off, still awake must be sober
Getting stale again stuck in place take me somewhere
Are we ever done making up, dragging forward? (Are we anchored in bed?)
Getting late again, call me when this is over
But whatchu thinking ‘bout?
Such a waste when I’m talking, when it’s all on my own sleeve
Get away from the camouflage, feel no way bout the old me (Ooh)
After all we’re playing fair now
In a way that’s what you had taught, was just delayed by my own speed
But we’re finally getting real now
Gonna catch me off, lie awake, getting older (Knowing you could be 1000 miles from here)
Getting stale again stuck in place going nowhere
So whatchu thinking now?
All in when you talk about it, “it’s all up to me” (to direct the feature)
Listen to your head, listen to your body (Ooh)… so why you stressing out?
Fall back when it comes to it… could be my worst mistake (not adept at failing)
Listen to your head, listen to your body… so whatchu thinking now?
Listen to your head, listen to your body… so whatchu thinking ‘bout?
Hold up, when you think about it… I could just run in place talking all This
Listen to your head, listen to your body… so whatchu thinking now?
Maybe it’s best to forget about it, cause it’s all up my own sleeve
Get away from the camouflage, feel no way that it’s on me (Ooh)
World’s hardly playing fair now
Be dismayed by your compromises, as I get played by my own fears
Guess we’re finally getting real now
Gonna catch me off, still awake, must be sober
Getting stale again call me when this is over
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9. |
dial-up
03:40
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Before we end up on a heartache
Too hungry for an idea
But today, for today
We can try
We can take the advice of
Everyone we wanted to resemble
And it’s been like this since we both were kids
And I always knew you were never fond of it, neither was I
So don’t feel like you have to call
Just know I could hear you crumble at 3am
It’s 3am… before the rest has won
And you are what’s wrong
But only for tonight do you resolve
And I can’t shake the indictment (Can we pick up in the middle?
circle back to the top)
You are what’s gone (like how we’d unlearn ourselves or watch movies on cable, loose with the details )
Before the help has come (at least we’ve seen it all now at least we’ve seen it all now)
But I (but I can’t even decide what’s healthy anymore)
I won’t take the advice of (could you just soften the impact? Let me down slow, just... )
Everyone
(Soften the impact please let me down slow)
We wanted to resemble
And it’s been like this since we both were kids
And I always knew you would take a part of it with wandering eyes
But don’t feel like you have to run
The thought just makes me tremble
At 3am, at 3am
3am, at 3am
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10. |
Downriver Mall Vibes
04:24
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Well who’d have thought we could encase a life so small?
It’s not quite art but it’s close enough
At least I’ll know when I hear it
But what happened to the Upsides?
Those patronizing kind of lines that still ring true
And if nostalgia is the enemy, I’ll swallow every sour note
Drink it all down they said “We’ll see you motherfuckers in…”
There’s nothing to criticize in this, but there’s something to prove
You wanted nothing to break your stance, but it’s breaking you
At least I can sympathize
We’ll commiserate and keep things right on track
So with nostalgia to sell we’ll see you motherfuckers in hell
I don’t expect to escape these thoughts, we oughta keep things honest
You wanna think for yourself (so please just shut me off, spin one up and play it out)
I can’t expect you to suffer my minimization of obvious truths for Comfort (so can we just)
Consider a compromise in this, and though I still have a lot to say
I’ll keep it cool singing loud round town on the freeway
So when the cold heart bends then we can recognize
Commiserate and take things right off track
And I swear we’re healing for ourselves
So frame me through that lens and we’ll take things right off track
(So please just shut me off, spin one up and play it out)
(I don’t intend to erase these thoughts and if we’re being honest you oughta speak for yourself)
And I swear we’re healing for ourselves so frame me through that lens
We can keep things right off track
(Please just cut me off, turn it up and play it out)
And I swear we can claim this for ourselves and
Share it with our friends
We’ll make this right again
(But I may expect you to suffer my examination of terrible truths for a good time)
A harder admission
You can’t ignore the plain intention
But I’ve been low enough to fear it, so
Don’t wait for me, don’t wait for me
Give your answer when I trace it all back through in your steps
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